It seems fitting to be writing about this topic, seeing as it’s World Mental Health Day.
But in this day and age, I find it devastating that so many people across the world suffer in silence.
Mental Health was never really anything I knew about when growing up. It wasn’t mentioned throughout school and was never a topic of conversation amongst my family and friends. It was only when l I met my partner, Nick, that I really had any exposure to it at all.
We met in school and I knew he had some demons, but it wasn’t until we reconnected in 2016 that I began understood the severity of his mental illnesses. I, myself, suffered with some form of mild depression & anxiety when going through a divorce but nothing could compare to the moment the love of my life confessed he had made active attempts to plan, and carry out his own suicide on a daily basis.
Honestly, in that moment my entire world came crashing down around me. And the only thing I was sure of, was that Nick felt 100x worse than I did. My life instantly plunged into complete darkness and I didn’t know if there was a way out of it. I thought of every single possible, outcome and worst case scenario. The thought of losing him, after everything we had faced, was an option I was not willing to consider. But how do you fix something that you don’t understand?
I thank God that Nick, in his darkest moment, had the strength to talk to me and admit that he needed help. He has worked tirelessly to battle his demons and face some of his most terrifying truths, some of which I may never come to know or understand.
With the help of therapy, Nick is doing a lot better. And whilst this may be something that we have deal with from time to time, I’m thankful that he chose to live.
The point of sharing this is to let you all know that you never really know what someone else is going through. Anyone can be affected by mental illness, even the bravest of faces can be hiding something.
If you are struggling, I know that speaking up can feel like the most daunting thing to do. But I promise it will make things feel a little easier. Opening up to a friend, family member or health profession can be the start of your recovery. You can also find some advice and support at Mind.
And just in case you need to hear this today, you are loved. You are worthy.